Where is my Motivation?

Man with satan still in office and broke pockets and slow at work its been a challange tring to come up with some decent entries..its been a ruff week..rent was due..car notes are due..baby needs diapers, food, more diapers,..insurance, phone, man just a bit too much all at once. its like the whole week i didn't get anything i wanted...Bush out of office...Work to pick up so i can have some money in my pocket and life bills not effect me that much and have enough to smoke me some train reck...for all my true bud smokers you know what train reck is..so im wonering where can i get some motivation??